Daughter of Godcast 070

Daughter of Godcast Episode 070, The End. The last episode of the Gentle Release.

Hello and goodbye! We’re here to wrap 2016, in the very last episode of the Daughter of Godcast Gentle Release. This has been approximately 70 episodes about the 12 going on 13 year history of the Daughter of God, a post apocalyptic romantic comedy featurette. We’ve got a smidge of 2016 yet to tell and then we’ll briefly talk about next week’s invitation to the upcoming Crowd Completion. Episode 070, The End.

Toe Socks

In Episode 006 and 016, we introduced Toe Socks, the short Lauren Discipio had written and directed back in 2002, inspired by an aesthetic conflict with our pal Shoal Southworth. I was the cinematographer and support for Lauren, her first time directing. We edited together and wrote and performed the theme song, Beans and Rice. Since Lauren and I didn’t really know anything about film festivals back then, Toe Socks never found an audience, we just sent the link to a few friends and moved on.

Telling the story of the Daughter of God implied I might eventually revisit my entire origin myth, every project and experience that informed my perspective as an artist, shaped me as a maker of movies and as a human. On August 31 I wrote to Lauren and asked her permission to post Toe Socks on YouTube. She replied that Toe Socks deserved to be seen. I tossed out the idea of sending it to a few short festivals and she was game. She created an IMDB page and we uploaded a screener. We tried top tier festivals and a few regionals, but our genius went unrecognized. We were and clearly still are, decades ahead of the curve.

Vasty Virtuality

Some geekiness. A megabyte is a thousand kilobytes, a gigabyte is a thousand megabytes and a terabyte is 1000 gigabytes. 1 terabyte can store about 2.5 hours of 720p HD video, at 30 frames a second. Since each second of video has 30 frames or pictures, here’s another way to think about 1 TB. 2.5 hours x 60 minutes x 60 seconds x 30 frames = 270,000 pictures. That’s how many pictures you can save on 1 TB.

Over the course of the project I had grown my life’s archive from ~20 TB to over 100 TB, most of which was stored on 1TB bare 5.25″ SATA drives. The SATA drives had been swapped into 2 bays, the trusty Venus T5’s I’d purchased in 2008. By 2016,  the drivers for the Venus T5 were antiquated and my SATAs would no longer mount reliably. In June of 2016 I hungered for way more storage, a vasty virtuality that would give ready access to all DOG’s media.  After some research I went with OWC’s Thunderbay RAID and the super convenient Startech 4 bay SATA toasters. In english, this meant that I could have 18 TBs of super fast RAID storage and an additional 4 TBs of removable SATAs or 22 TB available total at any given time. That’s room enough for almost 6 million pictures.

As the years have rolled by, significant chunks of Daughter of God’s technological infrastructure have obsoleted, Final Cut Pro 7.0 being the most significant. I so appreciate that most of my archival files are still accessible after all this time.


At a random party in late summer of 2016, I met a real life Uncle Joe, a deep state operator, long retired. In his day, a player. Now living in a shack somewhere in Manistee, a random acquaintance of the party’s host. He displayed a casual disregard for his top secret clearance , happy to tell me whatever I wanted to know. I asked him how he could get away with that, and he said no one would ever believe me, and if I outed him as my source he’d just deny everything.

Later, I made inquiries in my network and his story pans out, he could be the real deal. I’ve since meant to visit him again and ask him a series of tinfoil hat questions. Especially now with the advent of the hokey To the Stars Academy of Arts and Sciences and the official release of the Super Hornet UFO video last week, what can he tell me about the fedgov trysting with ETs? My Uncle Joe is the “Wizard of the Deep Canyons, King of the Flying Saucers”, so any information this dark operator provided could easily be woven in to the movie’s backstory. Making the movie even more eerily accurate would be a win. Or I might be making this up.

Michigan Movie Makers

After the podcast was well underway, I briefly revived M3. Who was out there still, making movies? Recall that In 2010 I’d returned from NYC and after sailing around Lake Michigan I discovered Traverse City’s movie making boom, driven by the Michigan Film Incentives, see episode 028 and 034. I re-cofounded the Michgan Movie Makers and attempted to herd that community of cats. By 2015, the incentives were gone and my motivation to herd cats faded away. Now in 2016, channeling all that energy into my own projects, I wondered many other local movie makers might be left standing.

I emailed the list and requested updates. From our peak of 200 or so members, pnly Matt Dayton, Bill Latka, Arron Dennis, J Mark Eiden, Tom Emmot, Vince Hancock, Robin Pearson, Cody Stowe and myself were still active. I knew there were a few others out there, like Ben Busch, Cat Muncey and the godfather, Rich Brauer. The last of the Jedi.

Michigan Movie Makers massive update

Where’s the Cast?

In episode 008, Ann Loeding DOG’s line producer visited the podcast and gave her recollections about our 10 days of production aboard the big boat, Alexander Henry. Two weeks earlier I had emailed 4 other members of the Daughter of God’s cast and crew asking for their remembrances. Nobody responded. I was slightly disappointed at first, but then I realized that I had plenty of story to tell all by myself. Perhaps when DOG has legs, these prodigals would come home. After 10 years, Steve Zilliax now legally re-enter the USA, see episode 005. Maybe we can live stream his episode from the doom raft in the summer of 2018.

Wordcamp Ann Arbor

I attended my first WordPress Wordcamp in Ann Arbor with my new uber ally, Milagros Parades.  Every conference has a unique culture, and I did my best to adapt rusty geek tribalism from past SIGGCHIs, SIGGRAPHs, and even Worldcons, the World Science Fiction Convention. I returned staring up at learning curves, but at least now I knew what I didn’t know, and that’s a start. I attended my second Wordcamp with Joe Cissel in October of 2017, see episode 060, more present and itching to poke and prod the wordcamp culture.

Reasons to Podcast

After a couple months of podcasting, I was revising and upgrading my motivation almost every episode. This was both exhilarating and disconcerting. I thought I knew what I was doing, but history is just a list of surprises. Here’s a peek at my transformation in just two weeks.

process log

 What's the mission of dog.movie?

To magnetize 100k people to Daughter of God.
To give Daughter of God's audience easily access,
Offering audience access to the longest little movie ever
Preparing Earth for the coming of Daughter of God

A laboratory for Dan to build the new movie making paradigm
Dan's homebrew venue for global art and awareness
Dan's channel of connection to decisive collaborators

process log

Doesn't matter how many people are watching or listening. What matter is 1) Am I having fun and 2) Am I making something super cool? The rest will follow.

process log

Is the podcast a success? My god, last night I was organizing the master podcast file and seeing all the sound effects, and that reminded me of the crazy stuff I've done so far over the last 12 weeks. and I am like, wow, this feels good.

To sweep up the last crumbs of 2016, here are a few links from the extended family with commentary.

From James

In October James Schaberg sent, Johanna under the ice , a sweet short about an icy freediver. I was a certified FII Level 2 Freediver that August with Mark Lozano in Alpena and of course Wim Hof would come later. That James is a little prescient. He also sent me Favorite Podcasts of NPR 2016, in December and predicted Daughter of God would be included for 2017. Ya never know.

From Shoal

Shoalie Southworth sent some dweebs overdub of Geordie Rose and Dwave Quantum Computing. I was annoyed by the Mandela Effect commentary and sought out the original talk, where Geordie makes predictions about super intelligent AI not unlike Ray Kurzweil’s Singularity except without any mention of humans integrating this technology and upgrading. Milagros had already turned me onto Micheal Brown’s practical time travel with his Presence Process, so when Shoal dropped this video on10/08, I was prepped to riff about alternate universes around episodes 008 (10/25) and 010 (11/03).

I can’t help thinking that godlike super intelligence running on quantum computers is pretty much a description of us. According to Prof. dr. Dirk K.F. Meijer PhD and other researchers, human brains do much of their processing outside of the skull, in other dimensions, we are fleshy, bone-y quantum computers. WE are already godlike super intelligences, instantiating in duality for fun and profit. We’re sneaking up on ourselves.

From Matt

Back in April, when Matt Kern and I were tinkering with tracking and 3D scans, he sent a link for Lytro, a camera system that records not only values of light and shadow, but spatial data. This means elements of a scene scene can be changed after the shoot, they are not baked into the image. Actors, props, sets and even depth of field and exposure can be changed. Rotoscoping was used extensively with DOG to unbake elements for VFX, but a Lytro capture would make rotoscoping as obsolete as handcranked film cameras.

Quantum computing and the Lytos together imply that DOG is already an antique right out of the box. Technical details are moot, all that matters is the joy in the making – our delight in deploying a Toy Universe, tweaking the backstory, emphasizing the quirky performances on the big boat. Noticing how the making of this movie is still making me and maybe you too. The key to completion is relishing this making, loving this great big canvas, primed and ready for paint. We clearly have the spark, the madness, the vision. Letting the joy flow steady and strong, that’s all now. The movie is a connection to what we are living now, now and now. A capturing of full spectrum experience, just another deployment of the highest technology. Who’s making who?

That’s our history, thanks to those of you who went all the way from Episode 001 to 070. Over a year and a third of weekly podcasts. Next week, without any gaps or pauses, we’re going to begin the Crowd Completion, test screening chunks of the movie, from graphic elements to scene snippets until eventually we’ve assembled the entire shebang, the whole shooting match. I am so looking forward to feedback about what’s working for you and what isn’t, talking about how this movie feels, what thoughts are inspired, what sweet realities come within reach.

We want feedback on image fragments like logos and graffiti in the DOG world, miniatures, story boards for additional scenes, snippets of live action scenes, VFX… pretty much everything.

Daughter of Godcast has been available on iTunes and several other podcast venues, and streaming directly from DOG.movie. If you’ve been listening only, we’ll try to keep the Daughter of Godcast viable as an audio experience. The podcast has also been out there as a video version since episode 011, and if you’re ready to get interactive, there’s going to be even more visual venues.

We’re launching the Crowd Completion on at least 8 social media platforms simultaneously, so there’s plenty of places to comment and have discussions. Find links on www.dog.movie and subscribe to DOG’s presence on your favorite platforms.

So what’s the new Daughter of Godcast Crowd Completion gonna be like? Next week is the official invitation episode. We’ll talk about how feedback works in more detail and lay out some of the perks of participation. We’ll also present the first chunk of media for your review and post it on all the social media platforms. We’ll probably pose a question to focus the comments and discussion.

From then on, the episodes will provide highlights from the previous week’s feedback and then introduce a new chunk. We’ll keep reviewing and choosing the best chunks together until we’ve got a finished featurette.

If you’re not living in the US, Canada or Europe, I really want to encourage you to join in with comments and feedback, even if you’re not perfectly fluent with english. Daughter of God belongs to the whole wide world.

Here’s what you can do TODAY to get ready. Follow the links from dog.movie to your favorite social media hangout and like or follow the Daughter of God presence there. If you’re listening on iTunes, please rate this podcast and write a review.

Thanks for a fabulous year, looking forward more of you in 2018.

You’ve been listening to the Daughter of Godcast, episode 070, The End. The Gentle Release is now done, finished, over with. We’re moving all the video episodes to Vimeo for safe keeping, and perhaps enhancing them slightly too. Lots of changes coming. Maybe in 2018 well even get into the model shop. We’re mostly going to be in the now, the this and here, the ever present. Perhaps a tiny bit of guruing still, life coaching, rambling philosophical discourse, just for SEO sake, definitely hints on how to optimize your human experience, that’s one of the perks of membership in the DOG family. Gotta keep you perky. Actually, the whole Crowd Completion will automatically upgrade your game, that’s inherent in the design. We’re all upgrading.



Daughter of Godcast 069

Wow, just 2 weeks left until 2018 and the big shift. This is episode 069, Almost. Because after 67 episodes, not counting 009 the lost episode we’re almost done. For 16 months straight I’ve gassed on and on, unfolding the 12 going on 13 year history of Daughter of God, sketching out a personal exegesis, foisting half baked creation myths and blustering about the meaning of life. Going all theoretical and yammery, full of mad vision and talk, talk, talk.

This Daughter of Godcast Gentle Release has been an introduction to my unfinished opus, the movie Daughter of God, and I’ve tried to tell the story of how making this movie made me, Dan Kelly aka Shri Fugi Spilt.

Rambling recollections and ranty revelations have set the stage for what is about to happen.

Daughter of Godcast Episode 069, Almost from Daughter of Godcast – dog.movie on Vimeo.

The Gentle Release Ends

This is either the last or the second to last episode of the Daughter of Godcast Gentle Release.  We’ve been digging around in an archeological midden heap, brushing off artifacts, rummaging around in the basement. Now let’s climb in the elevator and ride up. Get in on the ground floor of an epic artistic adventure. The Daughter of Godcast Crowd Completion.

I am not sure this has ever been done before. Plenty of movies test screen before going into distribution, but I’ve never heard of audience feedback starting so early, before the final cut.

Fundraising sites like Kickstarter, Indiegogo and Gofundme encourage fans to donate money to projects. Daughter of God isn’t looking for your money, we want you to collaborate with cognition, by sharing your ideas and opinions in the months ahead.

During the Gentle Release, I’ve rambled, offering recycled and factory fresh metaphors about movie making and human existence. Often shining with insight, other times inscrutable, and occasionally cliche. Maybe these radical theories I’ve spouted about life and movie making are just a lot of hot air.

We’re almost ready for theories to be tested, to turn all this talking into a happening, proof, a movie. I’ve listened to these podcasts just as you have – doing dishes, driving. I too have wondered if all these words amount to mostly gibberish or genius. Time to stop the tell, and start the show. The telling so far has been something of a show, granted… now I’m geeked to convert conjecture and assertions into the tangible, together.

In the next two weeks I invite you to transition the Daughter of Godcast experience, to get more interactive and visual. To offer your notes, critique and  gut reactions. Even though there’s going to be more things to look at and opine about, I’ll do my utmost to keep this podcast a viable stand alone audio experience. Probably.

Primary Narrative

I’ve done about 7 Episodes on 2016 so far, an action packed year. Let’s recap, filling in the gaps as we go. We’ll wrap the history in this episode, almost.

in episode 056 and 057 I talked about the Uncle Joe emerging from the tunnel on his bicycle shot and showed the version that I roughed out in late January of 2016. I had reactivated my rotoscopers from India, Richa and Eshan to mask off Joe and the bike. I’d slammed together a bunch of toys and nick nacks and done some auspicious foley.  The resulting proof of concept changed everything, inspiring a new approach to VFX, the Toy Universe. When I finally got around to watching The Grand Hotel Budapest in 2017 I realized Wes Anderson had already fallen down this rabbit hole, lucky.

The Joe on bicycle shot features a forgotten mug of coffee, possibly left behind by Uncle Joe himself. Was he lounging in the sun and reading that vintage PKD paperback? I emailed Rusty from SomaFM asking for permission to use my official SomaFM mug in the shot, a product placement. He replied enthusiastically, but I’ve still got to send him a release.

 Open Source Product Placement

Legend has it that Stephen Speilberg wanted to use MMs for ET bait in ET the Extra Terrestrial, but MM Mars balked, so he cut a deal with Hershey’s for Reeses pieces. Sales of Reeses pieces boomed after ET rocked the box office.

Daughter of God could boost all manner of benevolent human endeavors with Open Source Product Placement and maybe grow DOG’s audience. Like TEAM DOG’s crowd funding for the Watershed Center in Episodes 046-049. I would definitely need a fabulous new trailer and web site make over before attempting any serious outreach.

Building a Studio

My discovery of the toy universe felt like an ecstatic breakthrough. I was also feeling encouraged by the establishment of a svelte post-production and administrative team.  Matt Kern and Josh Piersma were consulting on DOG VFX shots. Matt worked on the shot just prior to Uncle Joe’s emergence, the tunnel interior and Christina’s entrance to the big ship. I wanted the passageway to Christina’s cabin crammed with assault rifles and edged weapons, and Matt was working on a solid 3D motion track of my not so steadicam footage.  I had borrowed all sorts of guns from my armorers John Galt and J. Mark Eiden. Matt thought we might be able to digitize them, but the software packages we tried weren’t producing satisfactory results. To insert the guns, I eventually opted to use forced perspective for locked down shots and off the shelf 3D models when the camera was moving.

You can see a rack of this heavy iron in the dog.movie website banner, mounted on the wall of Christina’s cabin. They look like they were there in Canada with us.

Josh was working on stabilizing the abandoned highway shot from Breezewood, PA. I was planing on loosing Jonathan’s 3D cars and turning that shot into a saurian attack aftermath, complete with flipped cop cars and a chomped dirt bike. The camera was on a tripod and so the shot shouldn’t have needed to be stabilized, but the tripod was on top of my van which was buffeted by the spring winds of 2007 and my weight made the roof buckle a bit. I would have thrown out this shot, but the cloud shadows were compelling. Unfortunately the shifting illumination makes the shot tough to stabilize. Josh was trying every trick he could think of.

On the administrative side, the hyper competent Bennie Matesich was handling chain of title and the expenses backlog with additional support from Joe Cissel, Bri Mathias and Melonie Steffes. I had plans to shift artists Joe and Melonie into miniature work in the spring and maybe Bennie too. Bennie was also trying out for voice acting work with me, see episode 064.

Starting Over

In April my financial stability took an unpredicted dip, and I was forced to lay off most of my crew. In little Benzie County, talented people are not easy to find. By the time I had rebuilt my cash reserves at the end of 2016, most of these peeps were no longer available.

I made a mistake. In Episode 046 I said that in the summer of 2015, Bri and Ben Woody had moved into Keanu’s Airstream. Though they were def around to help refurbish the doom raft back then,  they didn’t occupy the Airstream until the summer of 2016.  I had planned to hire Ben to do more VFX and production that summer, but with my finances in shambles that wasn’t happening. Both he and Bri were super easy about this. Ben hooked his Nintendo 64 up to a big flatscreen in the Airstream and replayed his kidhood favorite, Zelda the Ocarina of Time. Bri almost blew herself up trying to light all the burners on the stove at the same time, and I had to forbid her from buying ant traps after she left a bunch of candy on the kitchen counter.

Throughout 2016 I was applying my insight into how the universe is powered by desire and that I could change my beliefs about what was possible as easily as changing t-shirts (see Episodes 062 and 063). My effort to grow an audience by getting my short stories published and narrating genre podcasts fused into a dangerous mutant epiphany, the Gentle Release and  the Daughter of Godcast. Around November Jil Johnson suggestion that I do more on camera, like my pre-podcast August bathtub PSA “Because, America” and thus video was added to the podcast. Along the way I realized all this video podcasting could become a documentary feature, the making of the Daughter of God, (see Episode 055). So thanks Jil!

BTW, here in 2017 we’ve been having problems with the video after I shifted dog.movie over to a dedicated Bluehost VPS, I think the answer is ultimately Vimeo.

Before we leave my first attempt at getting short stories published, I’d like to thank my famous brother Jim, who did the initial story doctor session around Thanksgiving of 2015. Thanks too to my excellent polymathic friends Emily Votruba, a professional copy editor and Josh McKeon, consulting librarian to the stars. They both gave extensive notes on my story George Clooney Burgers. Emily and Josh are also accomplished visual artists.

Finally, apropos of nothing, here’s the redoutable Tony C Smith reading my bio on Starshipsofa. This was a milestone in my acting career, like when I played Heisenberg to Ed Catton’s Bohr in the Benzie County Players production of Copenhagen. Ed was the voice of Interlochen Public Radio when I first moved to Michigan in my early 20s. I was living the life of a hermit, knowing hardly a soul in the shire, and his deep resonant voice felt like family. Taking the stage with him decades later was an profound honor.

After a year or so of cranking out VFX while listening to genre fiction introduced by Tony, having him introduce ME was a freaking rush, especially hearing him laughing through my tongue tangling prose.


Making movies can mean a lot of screen staring. Sitting is not the best for keeping a fabulous body like mine fit. In 2015 I converted to a hybrid standing desk for the the studios primary VFX station. My brother Mike had a treadmill under his standing desk and he liked that. As a trail runner, I was a little skeptical. Treadmills are lame. I alternated between perching on an architect’s stool and standing. For most other computer tasks, I’m on my laptop so I can change positions often – sitting on the floor cross legged, lying belly down, reclining in a hammock or stretched out on my side and navigating one handed.

In late 2015, Dr Mercola’s newsletter (Mercola.com) had turned me onto vibration technology as a way to help my mom rebuild her bone density, but the machines he was recommending were in the $5k range. After a bit of Amazon research I discovered the highly rated Confidence vibration machine, around $250. I bought one in early January 2016.

The Confidence does not offer the range of motion that the expensive machines do, but the construction is solid and the interface straightforward. Before giving the Confidence to my parents, I supplemented my own workouts with vibration and definitely noticed benefits. Eventually I moved the Confidence to my parent’s house and they liked it. They even had another shipped to their snowbird roost in Florida and when they brought that back to Michigan we had two. I reclaimed the original and kept experimenting. Turns it to be great for vibrato. Then one day, on a lark, I pushed the Confidence under my standing desk and climbed aboard.

Holy smokes! Not only could I still do precision VFX work, but being at the computer felt way more engaging. Another breakthrough! Now I could stand at my computer for hours and come away feeling revived and powerful. The only drawback of the Confidence is it has to be restarted every 10 minutes. But for $250, whose complaining?

In May I threw myself a surprise birthday party on Elberta beach. A diverse crowd showed up, slightly surreal. Friends from high school like Dirk, Jim, Dave, and Allison and the Briggs brothers Chuck, Chris and Phil and Chris’s wife Carlin. The Brigg’s elegant mom Gwen had a cameo in episode 036.

A crazy quilt of Benzie and Traverse City friends, including my prodigal nephew Patrick and Dede who’d moved down state brought her friend Milagros, who’d become a super tight ally that summer. The party was marred by a couple of wandering hoodlums who started punching people randomly, but eventually they were chased off. That was a first for me on mellow Elberta beach. Possibly an early insinuation of Trumpy into our timeline.

The Briggs drove back down state that night, but Jim, Dirk and Dave stayed for a night or two more and Allison for almost a week. The boyz and I took the XR-650 beast out for a test drive, and Dave, one of the more experienced riders among us got on her bad side and was bucked, after accidentally popping a wheelie and running into a fence. Dave is a super competent lawyer and fit warrior, so all four of us were humbled by his crash. If Dave couldn’t control my machine, what the hell were the rest of us thinking? I realized after the fact that my relationship to my bike was special. and not to be taken lightly. She had chosen me as much as I had her. I apologized to her for sharing, even with my long time and much loved brothers. Lesson learned.

A key component of the 53 beach party was live music and singing around the bonfire, I had expanded my repertoire with new songs for the occasion. Here’s an excerpt from my process log just 5 days before the party.

Process Log 05/15/17

When I started to write the Science Fiction Musical, I thought it was merely a fun idea for an epic movie musical. The music was not incidental to the experience but essential. The story required the technology of music to move forward. I was a music enthusiast, but not quite yet a competent confident performer. I decided that if I were to write a musical, I’d have to amp up my singing and playing, to have more fluency in the medium. Enough to render a song competently enough so that arrangers and {collaborators} [more experienced musicians] could flesh it out.

I was getting present and more relaxed with my singing. I started hitting open mics with Melonie. Emily asked me to play for Elberta’s post Thanksgiving feast, my first solo gig EVER. I was well compensated with 1 jar of Emily’s homemade quince jam. You’ve since heard me a bunch on this podcast, throwing acoustic caution to the wind.

Well shucks, we’ve run way over our time for this episode and there’s still a few 2016s to tell. You might wonder why I make a point of rattling off these incidental anecdotes. That’s because they are always redolent of more. When one of my recollections sparkles and glitters, a wave washed stone on the winding beach of memory, I gotta grab that pretty stone and have a closer look, with you. Then maybe later, a pattern I wasn’t even aware of will suck that stone in, a puzzle will be solved by that recollection. Trusting my intuition, I cover whatever pops up.

That’s all. We’re dang close now. See you next week if not sooner.

You’ve been beach combing with the Daughter of Godcast, on the eve of Christmas eve’s eve 2017 or thereabouts. The water is chill on our bare feet, the wind on our nipples reminds us to breath, just breathe deep and savor the freedom of harsh nature, harsh and righteous. You’re way more than you ever suspected, because no matter how much you are now, you’re nature is always more, you are more incarnate. And so very forgetful too, intentionally oblivious, here on this glorious self aware rock spiraling into the deep darks, spinning too. Meanwhile, we imagine ourselves unmoving, pretending stillness when we’re upside down and inside out on a 12 dimensional roller coaster. Whoop, whee! If you ever closed your eyes and stopped thought, that’s the feeling waiting for you. Whoo hoo! Fuck yes! Why do you think those crazy gurus meditate? You think yogis are down with boredom? Hardly!

Daughter of Godcast 066

Daughter of Godcast, Episode 066, Impossible. More fun than a flu should be, thanks to belated Wim Hof restart. The USA’s 2016 democracy simulation inspires a silly video, another precursor to this podcast.

Daughter of Godcast Episode 066, Impossible from Dan Kelly on Vimeo.

Hi and welcome to Daughter of Godcast, Episode 066, as in that romantic American Highway, Route 66 and two thirds of the mark of the beast.

Last week in episode 065 we took a 48 hour hiatus from DOG and attempted the ridiculous,  slamming together a music video for Dede and Josh’s new song, Strange Lullaby.  Even with production help from James Weston Schaberg and a couple hours of child care by Sharon Jones, this was a far fetched objective, pretty much impossible.

To maintain peak spiritual fitness, I recommend attempting the impossible at least 3 times a week. Arthur C Clarke even wrote a law about this, “The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.”

Discovering limits is not like discovering a rogue asteroid or discovering how to substitute bananas for eggs when baking vegan cornbread. Limits are transient, fickle. Next time we venture into the impossible, they might not even be there. Even if they are, eventually, like tongues licking lollypops, desire dissolves limits. Limits are as candy to desire.

Once we know what we want, we’re gonna find a way to be, have or do that, even if generations come and go in the process. The point of venturing into the impossible is to figure out which delicious limits we want to lick.

We’re back in 2016 in this episode, that year so full of fun, not just for me but for the whole of the United States! Smack dab into the impossible, America plunged headlong. Donald Trump became president. Gak!

Yet here we are, a year later and pretty much business as usual. What did we learn? Replace a crafty, suave and charming black guy with smarmy, befuddled, white, whiner – the poles apart – and America is still pretty much the same. Endless war, Christmas shopping, binging on Netflix. Smack dab in the impossible… notice anything?

The president doesn’t matter. Who Americans elect has zero effect on the overall trajectory of their nation because the United States isn’t a democracy at the moment. Maybe hasn’t been for the better part of a century. A democracy consists of citizens… not consumers.

Not only has there NOT been a nuclear war but the economy is humming along. Which is all about consumption, so there you go.

That’s what’s excellent about Trumpy as president! This last year proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that American democracy doesn’t exist. If having a incompetent, groping, dope in the nation’s highest office was really a problem, the world would be way worse off. We’re pretty much where we were with Mr Fabulous, Obama, the drone wizard. So thank you Trump for plucking the mote from our eyes.

We could revisit the other unspeakable horrors of 2016 including Hillary Clinton and the DNC, when Bernie stopped the role call. He looked so tasty in his giant carrot costume, dangled before us during the democratic primaries. “Look at me! I’m smart, I’m a socialist!” 2016 was brilliant theater.

After the primaries I made a little video from the bathtub to try and get America to vote 3rd party. Because, America.

Because, America

Silly really,  pointless… but you know what’s cool? Along with my science fiction narrations from Episode 064, Because, America planted the podcasting seed. There, see? What’s this podcast about again? About making movies, specifically the Daughter of God and 500 words into this episode, we’re finally talking about what matters! Creative leverage, finding our own power.

If elections in the USA are a sham, if politicians are collie dogs herding us in for another sheering or maybe even slaughter, if America is only a nightmare theater, then what’s to be done?

Let’s play a new game. Let’s create, invent, innovate. Identify potent desire,  start licking those yummy limits. Answer your own yearning, what is your heart’s desire?

I started my game about 12 years ago. Making an independent featurette film. I freely admit I had no idea what I was getting into. I only knew finally, at long last I was going to pay attention to what I really wanted. Daughter of God had repeatedly brought me right to the edge of my experience and then in 2016, beyond. Now ahead of the edge, surfing into the impossible.
I’m not quite done talking with you about 2016, there’s still acknowledging my improbable gender, more clues about owning magic, all the beings that left flesh,  the annoying vampires who faded out, the wondrous new friends who stepped up… For sure we’re coming to the end of this history, in the next 4 weeks we’ll be wrapping up the past with a festive bow just in time for Christmas. Then fasten your seatbelts, we’re gonna finish a feature film!

We’ve been licking limits with Episode 066 of the Daughter of Godcast, Impossible.

Accepting that American Democracy is fake is hardly half as crazy as believing 911 was an inside job or Tesla technology took down flying saucers at Area 51. Why should we continue buying into such a ghastly dominant paradigm? Because peril is exciting, things have got to be pretty dire to hold our interest, godlings that we are. What was unthinkable just over a year ago is now the new normal UNLESS you’re ready to grab the tiller of this mystery ship, play a new game, embrace your kooky, embarassing DESIRES and become the answer to all your questions. Allies are everywhere, teachers, groupies whatever. We are already in heaven.